Shmind Over Shmatter

So once in awhile (today being that time) I have to babysit my niece, who is my God daughter. She’s so smart, I love her. She’s 3 turning 4 in July. She is so beautiful too, 1/2 Filipino, 1/4 Cuban, and 1/4 Native American. And I have good times with her MOSTLY, but at her worst, boyyyyy am I glad I am not a parent! Just being honest! That shit is hard stuff, no joke. I like just being an uncle, that’s for sure. Holy shit, at those times, I have hella respect for parents, and young ones at that. It is such a crazy responsibility foreals. I’m sure… down… down, down, down the road I would like to be a parent and I do need me a boy to carry on my last name since I am doing that right now haha but that’s down the road and when I am ready! Right now, uncle, that sounds good to me. That is all. HA.

EVERYONE is a cot damn hater. Haters for days! Tis what it tis though. Just shrug it off. Do you. That is all.

I used to have most the colors you can think of awhile back. I had 5 hand-me-downs from my steezed out father. And the rest I had to thrift for. I remember thinking I was so fresh in high school rocking them. At the time, you can find the sickest Members Only jackets (even leather ones) for under 4 bucks, no fucking joke. And that was before the trend broke out nasty. Damn it. I had to stop wearing them once I saw the whackest fools and fits, with them being played out. And then seeing stores like Urban Outfitters remake them (it aint O.G. without the old school tag) and hella over price them? Anyway, I sold all of mine to Buffalo Exchange and Wasteland within these last few years and traded for some pretty good finds. I only kept my hand-me-downs my dad gave me, since they’re sentimental. Anyway, so my point is I came across the sickest one the other day, and thought to myself should I really care that it’s so trendy and so hipster (and so hiphop?)??? Or just rock em’ for the fact that I really was passionately in love with them. Whatever. Tis what it tis. I think I may purchase this one I found online. Fuck it. Anyway on another note, this reminds me I should ask my ex girlfriend for my white Members Only, and my cousin who stole it from me, for my aqua Members Only… Ha!

So I was talking to my best friend. And we were just talking about picking up new hobbies or pursuing things we’ve thought of before but this time actually taking the initiative and do it. So I’m pretty obsessed with fedoras, if you don’t know already. But yeah I just dig the whole “class” behind it. It’s steez, man. I do find myself judging fedoras when I see them. In my head I’ll quickly rate it on a scale of 1-10. I really don’t like when they’re flat up in the FRONT all Ne-Yo style and shit, BUT it’s cool when it’s ALL flat or all up, not half ass like stupid people try to pull off cuz they think it’s pimp or something [eye roll]. But yeah I like to wear them proper and all edges pointed up, and no damn tilt. The material? I hate cheap looking material. I think I’ve had so many fedoras to see what a cheap one by my naked eye. I also judge how the person presents it with their style for damn sure, if you can’t pull it off, don’t rock it please. HA. But yeah I dig how fedoras used to be a part of business attire back in the day, suits with a good ol’ feddy. Anyway so he brought to my attention how I am with fedoras, how I always talk about what looks good, what doesn’t, and what makers need to come up with. He suggested I learn to make one myself? I thought to myself, holy crap, I mean it is true, if you want something done right you gotta do it yourself. Haha. But yeah I’ve been doing slight research here and there, but my mind is too boggled, I don’t know where to begin but I do want to make this my little side project. Take a few classes here and there if I have to. Get a feel for materials, whatever whatever etc etc. I SORTA feel like Ben/Cam from How To Make It In America but they were fixated on jeans. But that show does inspire me to at least try. And if all else fails, it was just a side project right? And you can just simply snap back to reality that you already have going. But yeah I’m gonna give it a shot. So I thought I’d rant about it. I have so much in my mind, ideas for days, but all I can do is sketch em’ out. Feel so amateur about it, but I aint nervous, son. Later days!